A fresh start

Today marks the day I am officially done with school.


No more exams, no more assignments, no more projects. It's been awhile. 


Nope, there was no sense of euphoria. Only fatigue. The last 3 months have been madness. Really, crazy. My time was practically split between three things - school work, wedding work and managing my emotions. At 23 years of age, I find myself more vulnerable than I used to be. Probably as you gain more over the years, you start finding that you have gained a lot of things you cannot afford to lose - family, friends, wealth, prestige, shoes =)


It's been really rough trying to figure out who I am, but during the past few months, I realised it's not always about finding out who you are, but also creating yourself, that of course, would require one to know what we want eventually - the 'end point'.


What do I want my 'end point' to be?


I don't know. Good thing is, I'm not alone   =)

I know I used to blog about happiness, destiny, not knowing what I want in life. Then I'd go on to create some short term goals to make myself feel better. 


Now I'm okay being in my mess. Now - meaning, at this hour, which means I might think differently when I wake up tomorrow but it's fine. People tell me things would change when I enter my next phase of life: a working adult. Speaking of which, I need to start looking for a job. It's easy to find a job, just not one that you would really like.



I thought I might want to travel for a bit first but Switzerland is currently too expensive for me. Oh yes, I really want to go there. It's the prettiest place in Europe, me thinks. I love big cities but I'm a real sucker for nature, scenery and culture too. Sometimes when I think of the top 5 places I'd want to visit, I feel ashamed as an Asian. Europeans always asked me, have you been to SE Asian countries like Cambodia, Laos, Vietnam etc. And nope, I haven't and I couldn't say very much about them. If I had all the time and money in the world, I would go to
1) Switzerland - for the Swiss alps
2) Tibet - Spiritual fulfillment

3) Hawaii - watch Kilauea's blistering lava flows

4) Brazil - No kidding, I want to see the trees of the Amazon forest and the Samba
5) Korea - No reason, maybe too much Korean drama


Ah well, let's just see where life takes me. 




In any case, I'm now a free bird   =)